Go tell it on the mountain...

Today as I stated before was definately a day of reflection..

As I sat in church for what was to me our regular mass we had a visitor at our church helping our normal priest over the service, his name is Father Beiting at first when you see him you see this almost frail man as he followed father brown with difficulty walking and as the initial blessings took place he stood at the right of our priest.. little did i know that this little frail man would have a message that would resonate in me probably for the rest of our life. As he was introduced to the congregation father brown said he was a missionary priest from Kentucky that was visiting us from the mountains of appalachia. I thought to myself where is this place he speaks of however i intently listened as he continued on with the readings and such. After the 3rd reading from scripture father beiting stood up and spoke of his mission not before thanking the congregation for our hospitality (although i didnt even know he was here I was happy that our congregation made him feel welcomed). Father Beiting spoke of the Apalachia mountiains that are in Kentucky and how this place is the most empoverished are of the U.S.A. I dont even think that this type of poverty even existed anymore.. How ignorant and sad I felt he told stories of his missions and some of people he helped how death lurks in he shadows of the mountain. He told stories of rescue and how these people are forgotten.. How that knot in my throat just stayed with me throughout his message... I began thinking to myself how blessed I was that most of my problems were so trivial here we are worried about stupid things like home decor and weight loss or what have you, when some people need to worry about where the next meal is coming from. I dont know maybe I was naive to think that this no longer existed but I hope in the 60 years that this priest has been working this mission that he continues to be blessed and until his last breath he continues to help these people.. I will do my part and this will be my charity that I hold in my heart. For more information go to http://home.catholicweb.com/warehouse/index.cfm

May God Continue to bless you father Beiting...

Sundays...

Today is a day of reflection.. things I will do today, things I wont.. Sometimes I find myself going in circles and with nowhere to go or do..

I have found a outlet.. I was on thenest and found a chat message board of woman that are going through the same thing I am.. Yay! At least I dont feel like a freak of nature anymore...

Endometrial Hyperplasia

"In cases of hyperplasia without atypia, the general routine is to use prescription-strength progesterone/progestin therapy for three months, then to retest the endometrium. In milder cases this usually works well. Many healthcare providers use Provera for this purpose, but at Women to Women we use Prometrium, a brand of micronized natural progesterone (at high doses) that the body seems to handle effectively when used properly. Compounded bioidentical progesterone can also be used with great success. We prefer this treatment to Provera because we question how well the body is able to break down and clear synthetic compounds"

That is what I got from the woman to woman website btw that is my latest diagnosis says that it can be reversable and that after a few months and some weight loss I will be ok.. As well as be able to conceive.. OMG I never that trying to concieve would be so difficult and yet frustrating.. I have decided that with the help of God and the support of my friends and family not to mention following docs orders I should finally be normal or at least have a normal monthly!! Its amazing how I love being a woman and at the same time dispise my body.. Is that weird?

This weekend..interesting thus far.

I have to say that this weekend has been awesome..

I got to see some family, got to add a member to our family.. Miss Chloe K Yarbrough pure diva when I saw her I knew she was going to be part of our family forever..

I was able to go bowling with my family today that was exceptionally fun.. Its always nice to hang out with my brother and sister along with the kids that was a real treat!

Today the entertainment community has suffered a great loss I speak of Bea Arthur mostly known for characters in the 70's comedy Maude as well as my personal favorite the Golden Girls, I was truly upset over this loss.. Im sure that her life will be remembered for many years to come.. RIP Bea Arther... Say Hi to Sophia for us Dorothy!

The other night I was watching Larry King Live of course the fact that Dane Cook was on the show didnt encourage me to watch..hahahaha However I did find that both the interviews with Beyonce as well as with Dane were awckward for me.. And why do their heads on this show look gigantic? I dunno just wondering.

What else... Oh yea the long awaited Speidi wedding.. Im not sure who was waiting in complete anticipation for this however my twitter was bombarded by notes between heidi and spencer all friggin day long as well as Perez and Heidi.. Congrats to the both of you Im pretty sure that you deserve eachother. (not that they are going to read this)...

I will this week begin charting my workouts and dieting.. And will be sharing some experiences regarding some past diet fads that I attempted and I want to touch a little on some experiences with some friends gains and even some losses..

Til then..

hugs,

G

the beginning of the new me...

As i have begun this whole new me process I have felt the need to start fresh in all my aspects from the physical me and the exterior meaning my surroundings.. I know this may sound strange and I even feel like I am sort of having a mid 30's crisis.. I guess I can be a little strange, alot sarcastic and I don't know.. The thing is I know I needed a change in my life and so there it goes and like I have mentioned before this blog is my attempt to express my opinion of the different aspects of my life not to mention the journey of losing weight and quitting smoking (not a easy task) I am attempting to quit my 2 biggest vices.. smoking and publix icing now that they sell by itself in the bakery.. What kind of crap is that? Bastards I cant beleive they are doing this to me. However that right there will be my truest challenge.. I am going to have to stop going to publix or something... ok I digress today is 2 days where i will begin a weightloss program called transformations.. Im excited, scared of failure (since I have tried everything else including Alli) but I am commited the best part is that my husband is doing it with me as well as my best friend jessica! Why did I not do this befor? Why did i have to wait until it got this far..? I dont know but its like I didnt even realize the weight getting here. I have a great support group.. my family, friends but the best ones are my mom and my daughter the best cheerleaders in the world! The only thing i know is that the alternative is not pretty and I just want my little girl to grow up and be proud of her mommy!